It's time.

The time has come. I'm moving out in 12 hours.

The last couple days have been surreal. It's one of those times when you know that from this point on, life will never be the same as it was. It's exciting and terrifying and sad all at once. Everyone is going in different directions and no one is sure about whether you'll see each other again, or when that will be. All you can really do is say "See you later," and hope that you will. And then you take that step, and move forward.

I don't know what lies ahead, but I can't wait to find out.

Goodbye Sandy, childhood, and everyone here that has made me who I am.
It's been a dream.

Another late night.

I just watched Paranormal Activity 2 and now I can't sleep. So here I am.

Can I just say that movie scared the H-E-double-hockey-sticks out of me?! I started out in one corner of the couch and ended up in another, I was jumping so high. And then I come home and my mom tells me a scary story about her sister. And OH MY... of course! I'm listening to Pandora and an ad just came on whispering "We've been waiting for you....". There's no way I'm sleeping now.

Less than a week until I move out! I've been trying to hang out with all of my friends before I go. Over the years I have had a lot of different groups of friends and this week has been like traveling back through time. Especially tonight. I was with everyone I hung out with junior year and last summer... Well, minus one. But Tasha, Chris, and Tyler are here. I love them. :) It's sad to think I might never see them again. Or at least not for a while.

I keep looking over my shoulder expecting to see someone there. It's freaking me out!

I went to Hot Chelle Rae and We The Kings last night with some of my other friends. Have I mentioned how much I love concerts? Even if I don't know the bands, they're always fun. I know HCR and We The Kings pretty well so that was good, and The Summer Set also performed. I can't believe I didn't know about them before! The singer's voice is pure heaven. I ended up liking them more than Hot Chelle Rae which is who we went to see!

Anyway, at this point I am just rambling so I'm going to go attempt to go to sleep. Wish me luck.

Goodbye, greek philosopher.

Well, this past Friday was my last day at Plato's. It's crazy that I am leaving it after so long! I realized that almost all my friends have at one point in time worked there. Most have left, and I have remained. But now even I have left. Reliving the memories:

• Lady telling me that she bought her pants big because she "planned on gaining weight", but then she didn't so that's why she's selling brand new pants.
• Dancing to Concrete Beats after hours.
• Dressing up in crazy costumes to film our movies... which we probably find way funnier than they actually are.
• Lady telling me that she left her "cute little James Bond gun" in a hotel pillowcase by accident. But then again she also left her concealed weapons permit so she can't carry it anyway.
• All our parties. Hollywood Walk of Fame, Minute to Win It, Twilight, Christmas parties, movie parties, game parties. They were the best.
• That one game where you write a sentence, and then the next person draws a picture about it, and then the next person writes a sentence about the picture, etc. I have never laughed so hard in my life.
• Our wall in the back room that is a collage of song lyrics, signatures, drawings, and inside jokes.
• Lady telling me that her bank keeps on stealing her money so her card never works. "But I know how to work the system. Run it as credit."
• Grab Bag. Oh my gosh. Need I say more?
• Man convinced that there was going to be a fire in our store on Grab Bag and no one would be able to get out and would not shut up about it.
• Breakfast in the big dressing room.
• Lady wigging out because we don't take checks and because we won't sell her $45 pants for $20. So she storms out to find a credit card and her daughter pockets her coupon while her mom's not looking.
• Hipster day.
• Late night trips to Frogurt, Weinerschnitzel, and Del Taco.
• Hanging out: Bananagrams, Zupas, and antique shops with Rosie, bowling with Melanie, Nikki, and Kolby, doing hair and watching Salt with Natalie, Ke$ha with Nikki, double dates and Modern family with Tasha, mission farewells and homecomings with Cheryl and Carrie, Pirate-Os with Melanie, stalking Facebook and hair wraps with Annie and Sierra, MGMT with Rosie and Tina, SLC Arts Festival and Draper Days with Madi and Sierra, pretty much everything under the sun with Sierra. And probably a lot more I can't think of.
• Shewolf in Plato's Closet.
• Wondering why there was underwear on the floor, and then Cheryl asking if it was mine.
• Plato's romances, and romance advice.
• The infamous lady that peed in a shoe.
• And of course, most importantly all the amazing and lifelong friendships I formed during my time there. Cheryl, Nikki, Tina, Ashley, Natalie, Kolby, Rosie, Tasha, Sierra, Madi, Steffen, Kylee, Annie, Tyler, Melanie, Tricia, Kimber, Robin, Phil, and everyone else. I'm gonna miss you like crazy!

Satisfaction.

I hate those nights when you have all this creative energy, like you want to write a song, or a novel, or redecorate a room, or paint a picture while listening to Adele. But you don't know how to write or paint.

So really, the best I can do is sit in bed and read Old Letters like a Company of Thieves song. Sometimes someone else's creativity is as close as you can get.

Current obsessions.

1. Demi Lovato
I thought about making Skyscraper the only song on my playlist thing so anyone who visits my blog would be forced to listen to it. But seriously, just listen to #5. You will fall in love.

2. Switched at Birth
Even with its less-than-great acting, extremely fast moving plot, and removal of two amazingly attractive male characters within the first few episodes, this show still manages to make me teary-eyed every Monday night.

3. The Calendar

The fact that I am moving out exactly 3 weeks from today is kind of freaking me out! I still have way too much stuff to do. But I am also very much obsessed with it and I can't wait!

24.

Days until I move out, that is. Less than a month. I don't even know what to do! And 14 days until I am done with Plato's Closet. That place has consumed half my life for the past two years. I am not going to know what to do with myself when I no longer work there. But I feel like it's going to be a good feeling. Better than a good feeling.

The real question is what am I still doing up at 2:30 in the morning, writing a blog post? I don't have an answer. I slept for 16 hours two nights ago so now I can't sleep at all. It's pretty fun.

I don't know what to write about though... My life just consists of living one day at a time and waiting for it to take me somewhere, like to college. But that's still 24 days away.

It's weird how sometimes your best friends are people you have known forever but never became friends with until later. That's how it is with all of my friends. I moved in when I was 12 and I was going to the same church as Danielle for all that time, but we didn't become friends until I was 16. And same with Sierra... We have gone to school together since 7th grade but somehow didn't become friends until senior year. Maybe we were all just trying to fight fate.
If so, I'm pretty happy fate won that one.

Graduation.

High school is over! As of this past Tuesday, I am officially a graduate of Alta High School Class of 2011. What a good feeling. Now to spend the summer living at work before I head off to college in the fall. Crazy.